Sorry…I
haven’t been a very good blogger recently. Things have been kind of hectic, but
I’m back on track!
There
are times when I wish that eternal life was possible because then I would be
able to learn and be whatever I wanted. Before I went to Gallaudet, I was torn
between three colleges: RIT (Rochester Institute of Technology), Kenyon College,
and Gallaudet University. RIT offered me a partial scholarship so I could
afford it, Kenyon offered me nothing but it was the college I desperately
wanted to go to, and Gallaudet offered me a full scholarship.
So
guess which college I chose? Gallaudet University. A free education is better
than a $200,000 debt at Kenyon. If I went to RIT, I would have gotten a degree
in premedical studies, and I would have been broke by the time I went to
medical school. If I went to Gallaudet, I would be able to get two degrees and
a minor for free, which allows me to be able to go to grad school debt-free.
That. Is. Awesome. A lot of work, but awesome.
My
dream grad school is Boston University and I want to get two degrees there:
deaf education and Creative Writing. Plus, there’s a deaf school a ½ hour away
from the college that I could work at while getting my degrees. If I don’t get
at least some financial help though, I won’t be able to get my Ph.D. At least
not right away, but a lot of people find that it’s hard to go back to school
one you’ve been away from it for awhile.
I
don’t want to have to choose though. I wish I could have gone to RIT and got
that degree in Pre-Med so I could go on to medical school and become a
pediatrician. I wish I could have gone to Kenyon to get that ridiculously
expensive English degree. I wish I could do everything and learn everything,
but I can’t and that makes me feel kind of hopeless.
However,
I am fulfilling the requirements for medical school by taking free courses with
MIT. Right now I’m taking Single Variable Calculus. I just found out about this
awesome resource for independent learners: http://ocw.mit.edu/index.htm. I plan to
take classes during breaks so I don’t feel like my brain is rotting away.
I
can get my unofficial pre-medical and possibly my unofficial M.D. I love this
resource! However, I reflect on the past and I feel stabs of regret because I
never did a lot with my free time before. I write, but I never wrote prolifically.
One reason for this is because my own brain prevents me from doing so, but only
to a certain level. I just have to tell myself it’s not over yet, that I’m not
dead. I still have a lot of time left to live and learn.
That’s
another thing I’m tentative about. Is it worth learning all this stuff? Shouldn’t
I be doing? If so, what should I be doing with my time? It’s an impossible
question to ask when you’re me.
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